Bye Bye Baby Nurse

6/19 - Week 3

Well, I call this, "I almost totally lost it in this post partum tornado - but then I woke up in one piece and so did Violet - mission accomplished (at least for one night)." I hope you find the humor in my partial insanity.

So the nurse left last night and my performance upon her departure was worthy of an oscar/tony/ even Grammy if you consider the wailing cries on a musical level. I started weeping about 3 hrs before I knew she was getting ready to leave so the anticipation was building. Actually that's a lie- I started weeping about 7 days before Juliana was about to leave. OK another lie- I started weeping the day she started working knowing it would soon come to this moment. At 6:45 pm, When she emerged from the bathroom dressed in regular clothes (a jeans and a purple sweater which i swear she planned out), her nurses uniforms neatly packed away in her suitcase (in hand :(. That's when the tears really started to flow. As she held me (or I held her for dear life) she repeated these last words "ill see you Tuesday Ariel, ill see you Tuesday!!" We had a group hug, then Lew has to basically surgically remove my grip from her arms. When the door closed I peered through the peep hole till she was no longer in site. Then I lost it- tears did flow. Lew had to hold me up, walk me away from the door to keep me from running after her. :) He brought me sobbing into the kitchen where dinner was almost ready (bleh food at a time like this?!?). It took about 1 minute of restraint till I let it all out, collapsing hysterical crying on the kitchen floor repeating "come back, come back I miss her I miss her" as Lew tried to console me through his uncontrollable laughter. I blame hormones for this all and promise to regain my sanity in another 3 weeks (6 weeks tops of baby blues till you are considered "clinical" which I refuse to be unless there as a great painkiller for that) Anyway, it took 2 hours, a bowl of pasta, Tasti-D-Light and a glass of wine to regain a little control (so much for my appetite loss).

I hope you are laughing at me as I am while writing this. I don't think I am as much worried about going it alone as it was just such a milestone her leaving-- now I am completely responsible for little Miss Violet- slightly scary especially with postpartum anxiety, but I'm ready none the less and did an OK job last night! Also, it was the first time since I was pregnant that Lew and I had been alone! It was like the closing ceremony to this huge marathon that I had finished and starting the next one an hour later. I can't adequately describe it but anyway... Here we go!

So last night- we totally made it. I am exhausted and she was up for about 4 hours on and off from 1030 till 7 am. But lying in bed this am the 3 of us - it just makes my life complete. I think I can get used to this.

WHAT THE HELL WOULD I DO WITHOUT... These black and white Wee Flash Cards have provide minutes (not hours, we are not up to that yet) of entertainment for Little miss Vi. One of my mommy friends recommended it and we love!
http://www.giggle.com/p/13620/c/565/cl/612/Wee-Flash-Cards---Original-Collection.aspx